I don’t know what it is about people calling themselves “weird” that bothers me. Maybe it’s the fact that these same people usually find a lot of things weird. “Woke up and it’s 11:11 am/pm. Weird.” “I had a weird dream about my boyfriend.” “I threw an apple up and it kept coming back to the ground. How weird!” I used to think that I was weird because I talked to myself in English while I was doing the No. 2 in the bathroom: I literally had conversations where I’m both the interviewer and interviewee. But I found out that a lot of people do that as well so I wasn’t that weird after all. The only people I would probably consider weird are those in the Guinness Book of World Records.
|Now THIS is weird.|
I also have a problem with people who call themselves “smart”. I love that you’re owning it. But then I visit your profile and your grammar is awful. Look, I suck at grammar too, that’s why I don’t ever proclaim I’m smart. Not that I equate good grammar with intelligence, but if you don’t know the proper usage of “your” and “you’re”, then that “I’m smart” statement just crumbles. PRO-TIP: Never proclaim you’re smart. Prove it.
I guess this is why I don’t feel comfortable being labeled a certain thing myself. People expect you to do or not do certain things. And if you do something different from what they expect of you, they don’t like it. They find it hard to accept that you can be more than what they’ve labeled you as.
I enjoy playing Tower Defense with my friends. We also have board game nights where we play Betrayal at the House on the Hill, Game of Thrones or Battlestar Galactica. I follow the Game of Thrones TV series religiously. And I just started playing Dungeons and Dragons. Once people know these things about me, they automatically say that I’m a nerd. I’m not. I just do nerdy things from time to time. I’m not dedicated enough in those things to become a full-fledged nerd. Also, the nerd-hood does not appreciate half-assed posers, AM I RIGHT?! NERDS, REPRESENT! (That’s me being a dork, not a nerd. Learn the difference.)
Since I’m not a nerd, I got tired of spending my weekends playing these games. I wanted to go out, drink and hopefully, dance. I told my friend about it and she asked why would I want to do that? When I said I’m tired of doing nerdy things and wanted a change of scenery, she said, “But that’s what you are.” Well, even if I were a nerd, why would that entail not wanting to go out and party? You CAN be a nerd and love going to bars. It doesn’t have to be mutually exclusive. I’m sure my friend was just kidding but it hit a nerve.
And then I posted this picture as my profile photo on Facebook, and one of my friends, who I play computer and board games with, found it hilarious that I’m trying to do an outfit shot. But what was so hilarious about it? Was it because he’s not used to seeing me like this? Or that it’s out of character for me to do an outfit shot? Well I did feel ridiculous doing a selfie, but I had fun with it and I think it turned out great. And he might be mocking me when he said that I’m going into fashion, whatever that means, because of this shot. Well what if I do? Will he ridicule that too?
I am not weird. I am not a nerd. I am not a party girl. I am not a fashion whatever. But I can be all those things. Or none of those things. I don’t know how people will deal with that, but that’s not my problem.